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A Reading Vocation

"I Must Read, Read, and Read. It is my Vocation." - Thomas Merton

This is where I chronicle my reading life.  I also blog about writing at Lacey's Late-night Editing.

 

Book 7/100: Frazzled - Everyday Disasters and Impending Doom by Booki Vivat

Frazzled: Everyday Disasters and Impending Doom - Booki Vivat, Booki Vivat

This is a fun, energetic and girl-centric alternative to the "Wimpy Kids" and "Big Nate" books that popularly combine journal-style storytelling with funny illustrations. The illustrations of Abbie as she navigates middle school are definitely the best part of this book -- so incredibly expressive! Also addresses the themes of fitting in and finding your own place with an empowering message.

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Book 6/100: Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys

Salt to the Sea - Ruta Sepetys

This is not your typical WWII novel because it focuses on a lesser-explored aspect of the war -- namely the voyage of thousands of refugees, many of them of German descent, who fled the country in the wake of a Russian invasion. The story follows four narrators: a kind-hearted Lithuanian nurse, a Polish teen attempting to hide her ethnicity, a German artist who has defected, and a German soldier.

The writing is beautiful and at times heart-rending, from the protagonists' grueling winter journey to the harbor to the horror of the eventual shipwreck. The characters were well-developed with distinct voices. The book does not shy away from the horrors of war, but it also has enough moments of hope and light to keep it from being too bleak. Two things about the book did annoy me, though. First, I found it unbelievable that Joana would have had as much time as she did to pursue her romance with Florian and her relationship with the other characters once they were actually on the ship, where her skills as a nurse were needed and in incredibly short supply; and second, with as many who perished on the Wilhelm Gustolf, pretty much all our main characters defied the odds and survived, but I guess that's part of what keeps the book from being too bleak.

All in all, it is a masterful piece of historical fiction that does what the best of the genre does: makes history feel truly real, and awakens a desire to know more about the real lives that have been shaped by the tragedies of time.

Book 5/100: The Life and Adventures of Santa Claus by L. Frank Baum

The Life and Adventures of Santa Claus - L. Frank Baum

When I was young, the toy-mation movie adaptation of this book was one of my favorite Christmas movies ever. It still is, although I don't watch it with the regularity of, say Muppet Christmas Carol. It was always a bit obscure -- it was not played every year like Rudolph or Frosty, and a lot of people had never seen it. I was thrilled to finally find it on VHS and later on DVD so that I can enjoy it for every Christmas and share it with my own kid(s) someday.

All of that preamble is to say that it was impossible for me to read this without my perception being clouded by nostalgia. Because the movie actually follows the book very well, reading the book was like seeing the movie in my mind once again -- and we've already established that I love the movie. Objectively speaking, if I read this without the context of my fondness for it, it may have felt a little like one of those books that was just one thing happening after the other without a really clear through-line. On the other hand, the prose was very often quite beautiful and it was easy to get swept away in the magic of the setting and the nostalgia of a Christmas origin story. I do think it's a pity that this is not as well known as Baum's Oz books, because I found it to be just as magical (although, like the Oz books, it did get a little clunky at the end.)

Book 4/100: Expecting Better - Why the Conventional Pregnancy Wisdom is Wrong by Emily Oster

Expecting Better: Why the Conventional Pregnancy Wisdom Is Wrong-and What YouReally Need to Know - Emily Oster

Around the Year Reading Challenge #TBD: A book you are embarrassed to read in public

I wasn't actually embarrassed to read this book in public, but I was reading it before I had announced that I was pregnant, so I was keeping the book secret.

Now that I'm no longer keeping a secret (and couldn't if I wanted to if you saw me IRL), I'm happy to talk about this book.

I am not an economist like Oster, but I very much related to her obsession with knowing exact numbers and exact reasons behind different pregnancy outcomes and advice. I've spent countless hours Googling (often in vain) for specific statistics and studies to back up general pregnancy/conception advice. Oster looks at a lot of these studies so you don't have to. I loved the tone of this book, which is empowering in that Oster believes women are capable of weighing the risks themselves and making their own decision rather than blindly following conventional wisdom.

Oster's overall takeaway is that women can be much more permissive during pregnancy than one might believe -- moderate drinking is OK, moderate caffeine is OK, invasive genetic testing is not really that dangerous. While she can back all this up and a lot of women will probably feel freed by her information, I still ended up following pretty much all of the "conventional" wisdom because I am so risk averse that even a small increase in the chances of something going wrong is more than I'm willing to take. But it is nice to know I don't need to stay up all night worrying if I give in to the craving for an occasional coffee or sip of beer.

Book 3/100: American Girls by Alison Umminger

American GirlsAmerican Girls by Alison Umminger
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Probably wouldn't have read this book if not for my book club, but I found it to be an enjoyable enough read nonetheless.

Generally I don't like movies set in Los Angeles or around the movie industry because a) I've been to L.A. and it was the most soul-sucking place I've ever experienced; and b) a lot of times movies set in and around Hollywood have an element of "wish fulfillment" when it comes to the idea of stardom/fame/etc., that I find to be off-putting.

This book did have a bit of the latter, particularly in Anna's somewhat far-fetched romance with a teen star of a cheesy, Disney-channel-esque show and all her opportunities to hang with famous peeps (some of whom were not so glamorous close-up). But what redeemed this aspect of the book was that it also did not shy away from Hollywood's seedier side -- the difficulty of finding and keeping work as an "unknown" actor, the emphasis on looks, the dysfunction that often accompanies fame, the lengths women must go to to remain thin and beautiful, and yes, the overall soul-sucking nature of it all.

Ultimately, what I liked best about this book were its themes about the way our culture perceives women, from Anna's sister's run-in with pornography (I got the sense that there may have been more of this than the book let on) to Anna's musing over the youth and beauty of the "Manson girls," who she is researching for an indie film for her sister's creepy ex. I expected the Manson murders to play a bigger part in the story, but instead they ended up contributing more to the overall themes rather than standing as plot points on their own. I wish more attention had been given to the throwaway line about how the Manson cult was deeply embedded in racism, though.

At times this book felt like it had too much going on -- Anna's family drama (which she fled to Los Angeles to escape), her romance, her crumbling relationship with her best friend back home, commentary on Hollywood and our looks-obsessed culture. But it could definitely serve as a good antidote to the stars so many Americans still get in their eyes when they think about L.A.

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Book 2/100: The Twelve Dancing Princesses by Marianna Mayer

The Twelve Dancing PrincessesThe Twelve Dancing Princesses by Marianna Mayer
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I think I might have read this when I was a kid, but I reread because a friend in my book club said it had been her favorite book when she was growing up.

Illustrations are gorgeous and Mayer is excellent at adapting fairy tales -- I still long to find her adaptation of Aladdin that I fell in love with when I was young. What surprised me in this adaptation was the emphasis on the feelings and experience of the boy who uncovers the princesses' secret. I always thought of this as a story about sisters and their illicit adventures, but this version makes it the male "rescuer's" story. I wonder if that is the way the story is traditionally told or if that was the focus of this particular telling.

At any rate, it was a little discomfiting. As a kid I certainly never noticed how creepy the idea of a boy going invisible so he can spy on a room full of girls/women was! But the strangeness of it all is one of the things that still makes this a rich and compelling fairy tale to me, regardless of how it is told or who is emphasized.

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Book 1/100: Sacred Wilderness by Susan Power

I fell off the wagon of uploading my book reviews for the end of 2016, but I'm starting fresh in the new year.

 

Sacred WildernessSacred Wilderness by Susan Power
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This book was divided into several different story "sections" -- one that took place in present day and followed an older Native American woman who was employed by a wealthy couple as a cook/housecleaner and others that delved into the stories of the main characters' ancestors.

I loved the way this book blended Native American and Catholic spirituality (which is what drew me to the book), particularly the Virgin Mary's intuitive understanding that all beings who forged a path of peace were sacred and would have been "friends of her son." Mary's manifestation appeared in both the historical and the modern timelines, and I liked her portrayal in the historical one better; she felt just a touch too "woo-woo"in her modern incarnation, and I kind of felt as if the privileged, unemployed middle-aged woman she was sent to "awaken" was not really deserving of the honor. On the other hand, her appearance to comfort a grieving mother and clan leader in the historical storyline seemed a much more worthy visitation.

The historical writing was incredibly beautiful and evocative. The modern writing I found to be a little stilted in places, but I liked that it lent some greater insight into the politics of being American Indian and living in the current culture. This is something I still strive to find a deeper understanding of, especially since moving to a state with a significant Native population that still remains mostly a mystery to me.

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I'm Still Reading -- and These are My Habits

It's been ages since I posted here due to life stuff (read: I got pregnant), but I'm hoping to make this book blog active-ish again in the new year. I am starting with this fun and low barrier-to-entry reading habits survey. :)

 

  1. Do you have a certain place in your home for reading? - I will read pretty much anywhere in the house, but I try to spend at least half an hour a day reading on the couch in my TV room in the basement so that my kitty who lives down there gets some good, uninterrupted cuddle time. I do all my magazine reading in the bathroom, because, you know, magazines can be recycled.
  2. Bookmark or random piece of paper? - Bookmark all the way. I get so many lovely bookmarks as gifts and from events -- I love to use them and using a random piece of paper feels like a waste!
  3. Can you  just stop reading or do you have to stop read after a chapter / certain number of pages? - When I do my daily reading, I set a timer so that I remember to stop and go to work. So I stop reading when the timer goes off -- if it happens to ding near the end of a chapter or a scene break I will read to the good stopping point, otherwise I'll just end where I am.
  4. Do you eat or drink while read? - Sometimes I'll read my Kindle while I have lunch or I'll enjoy a cup of tea while I read a paper book. If I go out to eat alone I will make it a "book date," which is lovely.
  5. Multitasking: music or TV while reading? - If someone else is watching TV or listening to music I can read through it, but if I'm by myself I don't play music or TV while I read. Coloring is my multi-task of choice when I'm watching TV. :)
  6. One book at a time or several at once? - I can be monogamous in my relationship, but please don't ask me to be monogamous with my books. I usually read four books at a time -- a paper book, a CD audiobook in my car, an MP3 audiobook for exercising and doing chores, and an ebook on my Kindle.
  7. Reading at home or everywhere? - Um, EVERYWHERE, obs. One of my requirements for purses is that they have to be big enough for me to fit my Kindle in. 
  8. Reading out loud or silently in your head? - Silently, although I'll read out loud a lot more after Baby comes.
  9. Do you read ahead or even skip pages? - I never skip to the end, but sometimes if a book isn't grabbing me I skip ahead to see if it looks like it will improve. Also, if I'm reading a book with multiple storylines or perspectives, I will skip ahead to see when I next get to read the one I am most interested in. But I always read every page in the book -- sometimes I just peek into the future.
  10. Breaking the spine or keeping it like new? - I try to keep my books in relatively good condition, but I don't care if they look read after they have been, you know, read. Also, the majority of the books I read I bought or received used, anyway, so someone else has usually done the dirty work of breaking the spine and the pressure is off for me.
  11. Do you write in your books? - No, because I usually want to keep the option open of swapping them and swapping sites frown upon annotations. I use post-its and page flags instead.
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Book 83/100: Nimona by Noelle Stevenson

Nimona -  Noelle Stevenson

Around the Year Reading Challenge Item #38: A book about an anti-hero

This was a light read, but not shallow. It had just enough heart and smart cultural commentary to be substantive despite its sometimes breezy tone. The relationship between Blackheart and Nimona was super sweet, and any potential weirdness in the adult male/teenage girl dynamic evaporated when  it became clear that Blackheart was gay.  I also liked the shameless meshing of traditional fairy tale elements - kings, knights, market days - with modern communication like news alerts and video chats. And the question of who is really the villain in any given system is always worth examining - Blackheart had a sense of "honor" and a personal ethics that belied his moniker.

I would have liked to have known more about Nimona's actual backstory; the gist of it was there but the edges remained a little blurry. The ending felt a bit abrupt to me as well, although the epilogue took the edge off.

SPOILER ALERT!

Book 82/100: Panther by Brecht Evens

— feeling horror
Panther - Brecht Evens, Michele Hutchison, Laura Watkinson

Around the Year Reading Challenge Item #50: A book originally written in a language other than English

Yes, this is a deeply unsettling book.

The artwork is garish and creepy, nightmare-like, really. There is far more going on than either the cluttered, overlapping images or the text will say. There are no easy answers, and ultimately I gave this book four stars instead of five because I was left with a few TOO MANY questions. [Like, was panther an imaginary friend Christine used to work through past or present trauma? Was he a psychotic break, her own psyche setting out to harm her, a brush with schizophrenia? Or was he really a being from another world come to seduce and molest her (along with his creepy friends)? I also had the uncomfortable fear that Panther was really her father coming to visit her in the night, and that she "coped" by imagining him as an actual predator -- a panther -- or that he coaxed her into thinking of him that way. This is the interpretation I like least, and I wish I could shake it, because I really want to believe that Christine has SOMEONE safe she can turn to.]

This is a book best read in the light of day, although that won't be enough to keep you from filling icky. There's just a better chance you'll be able to shake it off by bedtime.

Book 81/100: Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children - Ransom Riggs

Around the Year Reading Challenge Item #49: A Book with a Great Opening Line

This book has intrigued me since it first came across my desk when I was a teen services librarian -- I remember my intern taking it home the day it was processed and reading it all in one night. But I put off reading it until I could no longer put it off (my book club was reading it.)

So, why the resistance to a book that caught my attention right away? I was afraid that it would be "gimmicky," that the actual story would never live up to the stories promised in the creepy vintage photographs scattered throughout. Within the first few pages, I was pleased to find that I was wrong -- the prose is actually very good, and the storyline is strong enough to stand on its own. The photographs become a delightful perk, pushing the book into the realm of "experimental" or "mixed media" rather than the sole reason for the book's existence. There were times when the usage of photos felt a little incongruous -- places where they were used as "illustrations" without any explanation of why a photograph of that thing would exist were a little off-putting to me.

I liked the first half of this book better than the second. The beginning section is so atmospheric, with the descriptions of the bombed out, empty house, the rainy island, the creepy mummy in the tiny museum. Some people may find this slow to start, but I wanted the anticipation to go on and on. I liked the mystery more than its resolution.

The second half of the story doesn't take a nosedive or anything. It just gets a little jumbled, with a bunch of characters bursting into what has been mostly a solitary journey for Jacob, a somewhat questionable romance, some skewed parental interactions, and a lot of different plot points jammed together into a mostly coherent puzzle.

I haven't seen the movie yet, but I have a feeling it will focus on the "peculiar" children and rush through the opening, which would be a shame. It also makes me somewhat less inclined to read the follow-up novels, since they'll probably more closely resemble the second half of the book than the first. I invite those who have read them to make a case for or against continuing the series!

SPOILER ALERT!

The Underside of Imagination in Brecht Evens' Panther

Panther - Brecht Evens, Michele Hutchison, Laura Watkinson

Yesterday I finished reading Panther by Brecht Evens. It's an artsy graphic novel that can be read in about an hour -- a deceptively short amount of time, considering how impossible it is to shake once you've read it. In my exploration of the book, I'm going to give spoilers, so if you want to read it unspoiled (it will only take an hour, after all!), you should come back to this post later. panthercover

Panther begins when Christine's cat dies. She is heartbroken; this is not her first traumatic loss. Later in the book, we learn that her mother "left" the family and may have committed suicide. Christine is a sad, lonely little girl living in a big house with her father who seems to be basically a good guy, but I'll come back to that later.

 

The night of her cat's death, Panther emerges from Christine's bottom drawer. He is shifty from the beginning, always changing his story and backtracking to make Christine happy. And she is mostly delighted with him. But the book's sinister undertones are unsettling to the adult reader. In one image, Panther has his nose buried in Christine's crotch, "sniffing" her out in a game of hide-and-seek. In another, he tells her she's not "a little girl" anymore as he massages her back after trying to coax her to get the key to her room from her dad so she can have privacy. (This whole "key to the bedroom" thing kind of creeped me out all on its own. Why would you need a key to a child's bedroom? Is she locked in at night?) Christine never discovers it, but Panther devours her stuffed dog, who had been attempting to wasniffingrn her about him. When she notices the dog is gone, Panther replaces it with what basically an "evil twin" -- a lookalike full of dangerous and unsettling suggestions for "games." The night of Christine's birthday party, the dog is the ringleader in a "game" that ends with the Pantherland gang stripping Christine down to her underwear while she cries and begs them to stop. Afterwards, Panther attempts to comfort her by urging her to snuggle up to him and "pet" him while he keeps her warm. The book ends without "connecting the dots" of its troubling implications in any concrete way. What seems clear to me is that the book is grappling with the slippery connections between trauma, abuse, and imagination -- but the lingering question is whether the potential creation/imagination of Panther was a coping mechanism for Christine to deal with real-life abuse, either past or present, or whether the entity of Panther itself was given too much power and ultimately became the abuser.

 

hurting-me These are the possible interpretations that emerged for me upon first reading. (I had to return the book to the library, but I would not be surprised if additional meanings or interpretations emerged if I could spend more time with it.)

  1. Panther represents a psychotic break. Since we are given hints that Christine's mother may have killed herself, a family history of mental illness seems plausible. Panther and his creepy friends may indeed be "all in Christine's head," with schizophrenia being the tidiest explanation, but they are real to Christine because she has no conscious control over them.
  2. Panther is an imaginary friend given too much power, and Christine creates trauma in her relationship with him as a way to banish him from her world.
  3. panther-massagePanther is an imaginary friend that Christine creates to help her cope with or understand past or present abuse -- most likely sexual abuse. Unable to understand the predation of a pedophile, Christine creates an actual predator to fill the abuser's role. It could be that the trauma of her cat's death awakened past traumas, or that the trauma is current and Christine is reinterpreting it as a coping mechanism. This is the interpretation I least want to be true, since the most likely candidate for current abuser is Christine's father who, let's not forget, is the only one with the key to her room. But I really want to believe she has someone safe in her life; if her father is also "Panther," her outlook just feels far too hopeless.
  4. Panther is a real being who is visiting Christine from another world, preying on her vulnerability and innocence. All the abuse that unfolds after is really Panther's abuse -- but because of the strange quality of it, Christine will never be believed if she discloses it. Panther and his friends are off the hook no matter what happens with Christine next.

 

I couldn't help but think of Tulpamancy as I read the book -- because Tulpas are "real" and "separate" people to their creators, I don't think I am the only one who harbors an insidious fear of what might happen if a Tulpa "goes bad," bringing its host with it. In fact, Panther could be read as a cautionary tale of just that sort.

 

But it could also be read as a demonstration of the only thing some people have to fall back on when their real life is too hard to bear: imagination. And no matter how scary that gets, it's still a safer place than reality.

 

Regardless of interpretation, Panther is one of the most haunting explorations of that line between fantasy and reality that I have ever read.

Book 80/100: HRC - State Secrets and the Rebirth of Hillary Clinton by Jonathon Allen and Amie Parnes

HRC: State Secrets and the Rebirth of Hillary Clinton - Jonathan Allen, Amie Parnes
Read Harder Challenge Item: Read a book about politics

My library had this book shelved with "bios," so I thought I was getting another biography of Hills (I already read A Woman in Charge: The Life of Hillary Rodham Clinton) that was published later and therefore covered her post-Senate years and her time as Secretary of State.

This isn't actually a biography -- it pretty much picked up where the last Clinton book I read left off, beginning with her first presidential run, focusing on her tenure as Secretary of State, and wrapping up with questions about a 2016 run.

Although I followed Clinton's 2008 campaign (and voted for her), I have to admit that I paid absolutely no attention to her time as Secretary of State -- I wasn't really a news junkie, and she no longer held the position by the time I started working for a news organization. So this book filled in the gaps nicely, although similarly to "A Woman in Charge," there was a certain sense of "distance" in the narrative. Although I got a better idea of the workings of Obama's administration, some interesting character insight into our current president, and a few noteworthy stories about Clinton, I still felt held at arm's length. I haven't ready Hillary Clinton's memoirs (Living History or Hard Choices), but I feel skeptical about them because I know they are part of her political persona, written to present herself in the best light. Yet these journalistic, more "objective" takes always leave me a little unsatisfied, ultimately still feeling that she is an enigma. I often come away feeling as if I've learned more about the people around her -- Bill Clinton, Obama, etc. -- than I have about her. I think what I'm really itching for is Huma Abadin's tell-all up-close memoir.

Overall, this book was a bit too much about political machinations for my taste, and either it was published prior to or demurred from mentioning the email scandals, so I felt like it was somewhat incomplete. But I'm a little bit more informed than I was before I read it, and this is an election season in which it's especially important to be well armed.
 
 
 

Book 79/100: Unfinished Business - Women Men Work Family by Anne-Marie Slaughter

Unfinished Business: Women Men Work FamilyUnfinished Business: Women Men Work Family by Anne-Marie Slaughter
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Read Harder Challenge Item: Read a book about feminism or with feminist themes

This book tackles the evergreen topic of interest in feminist circles of "balancing work and family." While it treads a lot of familiar ground -- the cost to a woman's career when she prioritizes care-giving, envy of the Scandinavian countries that have this all figured out, etc. -- I liked that it framed the dilemma as a problem of "undervaluing care," and that it called on both women and men to change these cultural values. I also appreciated that it held women to task for valuing caregiving behaviors and tendencies in men, challenging readers to root out their conscious or unconscious biases when it comes to the assigning worth to an individual based on earning capacity.

I also appreciated that the book at least attempted to lay out some potential solutions to the problem, although I fear it may rely a bit too much on asking the government to take over the work of caregiving in various ways. It also purported to be a book for "all caregivers," but it really did focus on women (and men) in professional fields, giving the barest mention of working class families before once more ignoring their particular needs and challenges for the rest of the book. So it remains a book primarily for the "more privileged" workers -- those who have some kind of sick time, those who may have the option for flexibility and some leverage with their employers, etc.

As useful as this book can be in challenging caregivers and potential caregivers to give serious thought to how they might combine work and family life, I can't help but feel the people who REALLY need to read this book are the business owners and the bosses, those who can make a real impact on changing work culture one company at a time.

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Book 78/100: Cloud Atlas by David Mitchell

Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell

This is a good "fat book" for people who are intimidated by "fat books" -- because it is divided up into six different stories, it doesn't feel long. I think the book is best enjoyed by just letting yourself sink fully into whatever story you are currently in, rather than stressing out about how they all fit together. I liked the nods from one story to another and the overarching themes in the book. Of course, I liked some of the storylines more than others. I had trouble paying attention during the Luisa Rey storyline, probably because I don't particularly like "genre mystery," and I think I missed that story's significance to the whole.

The others, which range from historical fiction to dystopia and post-apocalyptic, all held my attention fairly well, although aside from Luisa Rey, Timothy Cavendish was my least favorite. The futuristic stories were my favorites.

Although each section has its own "voice," the book somehow manages to pull off a cohesive overall tone. There is no doubt that Mitchell is a masterful writer, although this book's experimental style isn't going to be for everyone. Although I enjoyed the ride the stories took me on in the first half of the book, I found the second half to be somewhat lackluster in comparison -- each story seemed to be building to another one that was even more compelling, so going through them again in reverse felt like something of a deflation. It was also disorienting, since I had kind of lost track of minor characters or plot points in the earlier stories by the time I returned to them.

I went to the movie when it first came out, and I liked it. But there is no doubt that the book delves much deeper into characters and themes, and ultimately weaves a richer tapestry.

Book 77/100: Wild Seed by Octavia Butler

Wild Seed - Octavia E. Butler

I've put off writing this review for weeks because this is one of those books that it is hard for me to be articulate about.

The experience of reading this book is claustrophobic at times; this is an interesting juxtaposition with the fact that its central characters are immortal or nearly so,which seems like it should lend itself to a feeling of "expansiveness." Instead, despite her immortality and her incredible shape-shifting and healing abilities, Anyanwu spends much of the book "trapped" by Doro due to her reluctance to put her children in danger or subject them to his manipulations.

Despite her entrapment, Anyanwu never feels totally "powerless" -- even as a prisoner, she loves those around her even when they appear abhorrent or unlovable. She's an almost Christlike figure and embodies the idea of "feminine strength" that persists no matter how much the world tries to control or break her down.

I really hated Doro.

Other references I read to this book made it sound like a love story between Doro and Anyanwu. It's more of a "love-hate" story. There's a whiff of Beauty & the Beast in the idea that perhaps Ayanwu's strength and goodness can save or change Doro throughout the centuries. I feel conflicted about their relationship and the book in general. It is not an easy book to read because it offers no easy answers to subjects of consent, dominion, sex, or history. The historical details are vivid, which is not really pleasant in colonial, slave-driven America. I wish the questions this book wrestles with were not still so relevant today.